Im in love with this song… and funny thing is… it’s completely relevant to this new boy n strange ways.

We might not have any money…
Poor students ftw!

Oh let’s get rich and…
First thing he said to me: “You and I could make $400k a year together when we’re done school, think about it.” lol… I totally shut him down. I don’t think I’ve openly talked much about my future profession… but where I live, that is not out of the realm of possibility.

Let’s get rich and build a house on a mountain, making everybody look like ants…
He totally told me he wants nothing more than to move to the mountains someday… and that he see’s me in his future plans (WHAT?! Yeah… he’s everything I’ve always been scared of… but I’m also enjoying facing my fears).

So I will help you read those books…
Definitely some book reading together in our near future as our big exams are coming up in 2 weeks!

Just very cute! Lol… yeah I totally dissected it! haha

What to say? I may be fighting it super hard, harder than hard. He flatters me so much, he’s sweet, and funny, and wants all sorts of seriousness and things that I’ve wanted so many times before… Until its presented to me.

When I actually get a chance for seriousness I freeze… I flee… I have no idea what to do with it. It’s like my entire life flashes ahead of me, and all I think about are what ifs, it scares the shit out of me. But when there is a boy that refuses to commit to me, it’s all I want.

What is wrong with me? I need and want to give this boy a chance… I need to let go of this ridiculous irrational fear. Just because Devon hurt me… Cheated on me… Doesn’t mean I have to keep setting myself up in situations that will for sure fail, and turning away the ones that have potential to be amazing.

This could be something good, I need to give it a chance to be.

This is how cool I look in my sweet coveralls… 3 more days of practicum! :)

Not having too much fun over here. Procrastination at its finest.

This <3

Also, Jack Black was in this video… never noticed before! 

Anyone who watches it knows what I’m talking about… WTF?! No Ben NOOO! I think we can officially call Courtney the Michelle Money of this season.

Went to bed at 11pm…

Woke up at 3:30am… (uhm, wtf?!)

Read a bunch of tumblr stuff…

Weighed myself? lol yeah… issues. (PS I should weigh myself at ridiculous morning hours more often, down 3lbs this week, woot!)

Ate some apple sauce (and 7 soda crackers… I’m odd)

Drank a bottle of water…

Tossed..

Tuuurned…

Tossed some more…

Played Scrabble on FB…

Played Are You Smarter Than a 5th Grader on FB… (I’m not)

Looked at myself in the mirror…

Thought about reading my textbook… (didn’t)

Listened to a bunch of random songs… (Meiko, Toby Keith, Lady Gaga, Gavin DeGraw, Live On Release, Dallas Smith)

Cheated at Scrabble on FB… Sue me…

Watched the new Gossip Girl… because ctv.ca is on top of shit!

Check 8974827 times if Citytv.com posted the new Bachelor episode yet (they didn’t… assholes. Don’t they know I need my girly Ben time?! hah)

Now I am waiting patiently for the episode to DL… because screw it… I’m not waiting for citytv any longer… and they wonder why stealing shows is so popular… supply and demand jackasses. Give this shit to me for free when I want it, so I don’t have to get it from someone else who will. The end :)

my-intention-is-happiness:

thefrenemy:

This is the only dating advice I can give, really.

The reality of it is this: I plan on making sugar cookies this weekend. You know the ones, the ones with cardboard exploding tubes that landmine sugar cookie dough all over your counter? There are pumpkins in the middle of…

All of this!

This couldn’t have come at a more perfect time <3

I miss her Daddy too…

I hate these days… they get further and further apart, but there’s still a space in my heart where they used to be…