What to say? I may be fighting it super hard, harder than hard. He flatters me so much, he’s sweet, and funny, and wants all sorts of seriousness and things that I’ve wanted so many times before… Until its presented to me.

When I actually get a chance for seriousness I freeze… I flee… I have no idea what to do with it. It’s like my entire life flashes ahead of me, and all I think about are what ifs, it scares the shit out of me. But when there is a boy that refuses to commit to me, it’s all I want.

What is wrong with me? I need and want to give this boy a chance… I need to let go of this ridiculous irrational fear. Just because Devon hurt me… Cheated on me… Doesn’t mean I have to keep setting myself up in situations that will for sure fail, and turning away the ones that have potential to be amazing.

This could be something good, I need to give it a chance to be.

1. my-intention-is-happiness said: live for today and not the future… don’t get stuck on what the future might bring just find the happiness in the daily things… I think the big picture has a way of freaking us all out to some extent… :)
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3. lovedonna said: Just be yourself. Have fun and don’t think “what ifs”. If he is genuine he will take the step, you shouldn’t have to push him. Confidence is sexy. Own it and give it a chance. <3
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